Haiz~ I feel so odd and extra in tiz school...perhaps i have came to the wrong school bahX...Why is it so different?It didn't came out the way i expected lol...My previous best friends Jazreel, Liting, Cheryl and Michelle were all having so much fun at their own school now...Even if they have any problems, there are always someone in their school to help them...It's totally different for me...No one there to understand what i am thinking...Though i have some friends...close friends...whenever they have trouble or any gathering...they aren't willing to let me know as if i was invisible to them...I felt totally useless...Sometimes i try not to reach out for them...But when i'd try to speak out...Felt like no one could hear me...Wanted to belong here...But something felt so wrong here...No one will ever understand... No one will ever care...No one will ever notice me...I am just a doll being throw to a dark corner seeing others playing happily...'Angel §' why can't you cheer me up when i am being left out but not cheering me up when i am alone...I am not afraid of being alone but left out...I don't wish to feel so isolated with them...I want my friends to at least care for me a bit...As for him...Angel § could u stop mentioning about him...coz what i think is that a real close friend is better than having a...........I know u have your own problems too...but can't you just share it with me even though i may not be able to help out but at least like let me help you by sharing your problems together...You always teach me to treat things happily but i know you are faking a smile infront of me...Aren't you the one whoalways teaches us all the 'Da Dao Li' why??? I think you need people to cheer you up too...Sometime when i look at you...you feel so lonely and quiet sitting there...I wish i can help you but i am afraid you might reject my help...lyk someone dos...Angel §...Am i really that useless...I kow you will say no...but hope you can really tell me the truth...And is it hard to forget oneself???
